Thank you to Word Press, who Freshly Pressed this piece. I have been deeply moved by the responses. Thank you to the many, many people who have read this post (here on WordPress and on Huffington Post) and shared their kind words or their own stories. I write to impact people, but this one is very personal. I did not expect the response that it got; I’m very grateful to everyone who has shared it, responded to it, or read it. Thank!
Dear Sir,
I don’t know your name, but you killed my father on June 9, 1973, in Stockton, California. My father was thirty-two years old then; I was ten. If he had lived, he would have been 74 on November 29, 2014.
The year my dad was killed
I am a 51-year-old woman now; my father has not been with me for most of my life, and yet I still feel his presence; I still miss him. When I was ten, and he was killed, I hated you. In fact, I hated you for many, many years. Somehow I got it in my head that you were a drunk driver and killed him while driving drunk. Perhaps someone told me that, or maybe it’s just what a child creates, to make sense of a senseless world. Admittedly, that story helped me for a while. It gave me a place to focus my pain, anger, and loss. If I hated you, for taking my dad away, I didn’t have to look at so many other pieces. We all need something to grab on to, when we’re drowning.
However, many years later my aunt, dad’s sister, told me that you were in fact a good man– young like my father, and that you felt terrible about your part in his death. She told me that she thought you had even come to my father’s memorial service. It was news that challenged me on so many levels; it’s information I’ve chewed on for several years since. I remember the day my father was buried, so well. I remember the funeral home– filled with people, suffocatingly hot in the Stockton heat. I remember that our family sat separately, in an area apart from the other mourners. I was restless, listening to people get up to speak, listening to prayers– to a God I hated. I remember my father, in the casket… It was one of the worst days of my life. If you were sitting there too, I can’t help but wonder what that day felt like for you.
My dad, 6 months before he died.
My father was a very young man when he died. He was the father of three children; I am the oldest. My brother was eight, and my little sister was almost five. We have all grown up without our dad, and that hole has impacted each of us very differently– but make no mistake, we each have a hole. For so long I wanted to fill mine with what ifs, and anger for you. You, you, you– a mysterious face in the crowd, who changed my entire life! If only you knew how many times I’ve imagined your face, and wondered where you were and what you are doing. Have our paths crossed, in all of these years? Could we have met, and not known who the other was? If I met you now, what would I do, what would I say to you?
I would say this: I’m so sorry for your loss. I know that you were just driving that day; you had no idea that your car and my father’s motorcycle would collide. I can only imagine the pain you’ve felt over the years, having experienced such a trauma. I would tell you that I grew up to be a successful and happy woman. I have three beautiful children and I’ve been married for 28 years, to a very good man. My oldest son looks like my father sometimes– there’s something in his hairline, and the shape of his face. It catches me off guard when I see it, like my father has whispered in my ear: I’m still here with you. I want you to know that I’m alright. I have never stopped missing my dad; I’d give anything to change that day and bring him back. But, I imagine you would too.
A couple of years ago, I heard an amazing story on NPR about people who had accidentally killed someone, and how that impacted their lives. I was deeply touched by the stories– the depths of the storytellers’ remorse and pain. It sounded so much like my own, that I suddenly realized I’d been carrying both your pain and my own… all these years. You have been as much a ghost to me, as my father has– both of you haunting me. I have imagined that day– that intersection–the crash– countless times. I’ve relived seeing my father, lifeless in a casket, for years. And I’ve imagined what you must feel. Hearing that story on NPR was so hard to listen to; I cried and cried– deep, convulsing sobs, as I let go of the last of my anger, as well as yours.
It’s a burden I don’t want to carry any more; I don’t want you to carry it either.
I’ve fantasized about finding you. I think about what I would say, and how we would both finally put our burdens down together. I would hug you, and say I’m sorry you’ve suffered. Perhaps you put this behind you a long time ago. God knows it’s been a long time– but pain and grief don’t have an expiration date. Given the years, you may not even be alive now. Because his sisters, my aunts, are so youthful and such an important part of my life, I imagine my father would be alive now, too, if your lives had not collided on that day in 1973. However, the reality is he might not have lived to see his 74th birthday, this week. Perhaps we wouldn’t be close, and I’d be worrying about whether it would be awkward to have him here for Thanksgiving dinner– lots of families struggle with conflict. Or, maybe we’d be the happy family I’ve dreamed of– He’d be excited to see his grandchildren; I’d be happy to have my dad here for the holidays, getting together like so many other families. I’d have a birthday present tucked away, for after dinner, and a birthday cake beside the pumpkin pie.
These are questions I’ll never answer; there are so many things I’ll never know. But I do know this: if you are still out there, if you still think about my father: Robert Quyle, and the day your lives intersected– put that burden down. He is gone; nothing can change that. We both need to move on, and live our lives fully and gratefully. To the man who killed my father, I forgive you.
Dawn Quyle Landau
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Dawn, this is such an amazing story and you are so brave to put it down in black and white after all these years. Happy birthday, Robert Quyle.
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Thank you so much Claire. It’s been writing itself in my head for a very long time. I think I’m just finally moving forward. For real. Thanks so much for your wonderful feedback.
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Quietly, I click like and send a hug.
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Thanks. It means a lot Audra. xo
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So well put together, this can be written only when we pass a certain age. The older I get, more calm, understanding and forgiving I become, acknowledging life’s true values. I am so proud that you wrote this, because although I don’t really know you, I know there is one more person in the world who was wise enough to forgive and let go.
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Thank you SO very much. I could not agree more. It’s taken many years to work through these feelings, this life story. It felt really good to write it down and send it out into the world. Thanks for your perceptive, very kind comment; it means a lot.
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Wow, what a powerful piece of writing, Dawn. You captured so much of the emotions both you and this man must feel. Good for you to forgive him. Sure makes the saying, “every day is precious” ring true.
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Thanksgiving seemed the right time, Lisa. In honor of my father’s birthday gave me the nudge. Thanks for your support. xo
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I consider myself a man with a great deal of resliency and a certain kind of “toughness”. No more. I am crying like a baby.
What an incredibly touching story. More incredibly, the simple but profound act of forgiveness that took so much courage and fortiturde to perform under such soul-wrenching circumstances.
“To err is human, to forgive Divine”.
God bless you and this man, Dawn. You have earned it.
Extraordinary post.
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Thanks so very much Toby. While I’m sorry to make you cry, I’m deeply touched that you did. 😉 Thanks so much for this beautiful feedback; it means so much to me.
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Dawn, Lovely story. It’s such a relief when you can forgive. Your dad was my age, only about 3 months younger. I thank God every day he gives me; I never take it for granted..We were fortunate to have my dad with us until he was almost 83 in 1980. Have a great Thanksgiving! — Susan
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Thanks so much Susan. I often look at people who are the age he would’ve been, and wonder what he would have looked like, who he would have been– what our relationship would be like. It was time to write this. Thanks!
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I am a few days older than you father is (to put it that way) and he is the same age as John Lennon is. I hope it is not crass of me to say that I am glad that UK made ‘skid-lids’ compulsory years ago. It is weird to see Americans bareheaded on motorbikes. I just wonder if your father wore head protection.
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My father was not wearing a helmet. They were not required back then, and he loved riding without one. That said, he died of massive chest injuries. The helmet would not have saved him. Thanks for taking the time to read this post; I appreciate your time and thoughts.
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What a beautiful story thou have written!! Bless thou for sharing this amazing act if forgiveness.
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Thank you so much, and welcome to Tales From the Motherland. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my story, and share your thoughts.
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Bless you, Dawn.
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I have friends like you, Cathy. I am blessed.
Now, once we meet in person… I’ll be even more blessed! 🙂
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Jueseppi, thank you so much for sharing my work. I really appreciate it!
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I believe you may have outdone yourself with this inspiring story of forgiveness. Everyone who reads this story will find something they can take away from it, and perhaps find in your message the strength to forgive whoever haunts their lives. – Mike
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Thanks so much Mike! I feel a lot lighter this morning! Thanks for your continued and always generous support. xo I hope your Thanksgiving, with your daughter and grandsons, is wonderful!
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Amazing piece, Dawn. Forgiveness can be difficult to give for tragedies like these, but I’m sure letting go, especially after all these years, must be liberating.
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I feel much lighter and freer this morning. That’s not why I wrote it, but I’m very happy for the outcome. Thanks so much, Carrie!
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A beautiful piece of writing and beautiful of you to forgive. I have thought of that man many times over the years, too, and I hope he found peace. Just as I am glad you now have also found some sort of peace. Happy birthday to my dear brother. xoxo
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THIS, just made me cry. Thank you so much for your constant and unwavering love. I am so grateful, every day, that you are in my life. xox
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Thank you for writing this mom. It made me shake a little inside.
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Thanks honey. It made me shake a little inside too. It means a lot that you read it. xox
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Best of all, I truly believe your Dad–my brother–would want us to forgive. Life is very precious, a thin thread that can be broken at any time. Thank you for this missive, Dawn, and Happy Birthday to my brother!
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Thanks so much for reading and sharing your thoughts, Pat. It means so much to me that you and C are in my life. I think dad would have wanted that as well! 😉 Love you, xxo
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Dawn. I didn’t know we had this in common. We are so close geographically. We must see each other again and talk and talk and talk.
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I didn’t know either, Kylie! We must indeed. It may take more than one night of cocktails this time. 😉
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Dawn . Very moving and well written . Thanks for reminding me that forgiveness is a blessing .
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read this post, and share your thoughts.
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Huge! Simply huge.
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Thanks so much, Susan! I so appreciate your ongoing support. 🙂
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Nothing ever truly resolves such tragedy, but forgiveness of all parties goes a long way toward making the world a better place in which to live. Thanks for sharing this reflection.
Marie Gail
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No, there may never be full resolution. There are new things that occur to me all of the time. That said, it feels good to let some of this go. Thanks so much Marie Gail.
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What a beautiful, brave, and touching post Dawn. Just wow.
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Thanks so much Melissa! I really appreciate you taking the time to stop by TFTM to read and share your feedback.
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Beautiful…and very, very empowering. Took my breath away.
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Thanks so much Eleanor! That is saying a lot… and means a lot, coming from you!
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What a beautiful, honest, and brave post. Wonderful Dawn!
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Dawn,You are amazing. As I sit here sobbing, I feel some of the sadness that I carry with me from the loss of my own father leaving me. I am thankful that I have a friend like you that knows how to put her feelings so wonderfully into words! xo
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Lyn, I’ve been doing a lot of personal work on this topic. If you can find MFR in your area (Myofascial release) it has been amazing! It’s incredible what we store in our bodies.
I’m deeply moved that you were touched by this, and really appreciate your beautiful feedback. xo
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Thanks again Dawn!!
I will look into this!!! xo
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So, so beautiful Dawn. Beautiful.
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Thanks so much Kelly! I appreciate you stopping by!
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Truly amazing and following story that can change many if hatred. Many will do what you’ve done here.
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It would be wonderful if we all could move forward…. holding on to pain, does not help. Thanks again, Kelly.
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Kelly, I like your blog. I couldn’t find like or follow icons though!
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Who is Kelly?
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Someone who left a comment on your page 🙂
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Thank you! I recently moved my blog, so maybe it didn’t redirect you. Just type in http://www.areyoufinishedyet.com and it should take you to the new site.
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This is moving and fascinating because, in a lot of weird ways, we have some strange parallels! My father was also killed in a motorcycle accident. I was 18 and never felt any anger at the driver, oddly enough. It always seemed like something so random, so ridiculous that no one person could be at fault. It felt bigger than some random garbage truck driver to me.
Anyway, thank you for sharing this story. It made me stop and think about the man driving the garbage truck and wish to absolve him of any guilt he might be feeling.
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We have all kinds of parallels my wonderfully edgy and talented friend! I have to say, I think my anger stems from being so young, and some of the more personal details surrounding his death. That, and the fact that we’re different people… right? 😉 Thanks so much for stopping by R!
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Wow what a letter! 34 years ago a man killed my cousin. She was 26, I was 17 and she had lived with us for part of her growing up. I miss her most of the time, but I have to admit that I no longer think of her constantly. While I don’t know why she was murdered, I do know that it was not an accident. Death shapes our lives as does life: who we are missing, who we pine for. Sounds like you have come a long way to be able to write this post. Hope you have a happy thanksgiving and give your boy, the one who most resembles your father, a special hug.
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Thanks so much Heidi, and I’m so sorry for that horrible loss. My entire life has been shaped by loss and death. It is very deep in my veins. This was just the first, and most traumatic. Thank you so much for your thoughtful and very personal response. I really appreciate you sharing.
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Dawn…an amazing heartfelt story and I am sincerely sorry for your loss. I’m certain your dad still lives in your heart. You never have to stop celebrating the day he was born and you can spend the rest of your life celebrating his birth. Wishing you peace and joy this holiday.
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Thank you so much Shelly. Welcome to Tales From the Motherland; I really appreciate you taking the time to read this post, and share your thoughts. 🙂
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Thank you, Dawn…what a perfect story for Thanksgiving week. I hope this post helps others lay down their burdens of anger, remorse, regret, bitterness…whatever negative emotions they are carrying for whatever reason.
I wish you and your beautiful family a most Happy Thanksgiving.
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Thank you, I needed to learn this lesson.
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Thank you for visiting Tales From the Motherland; your time and energy are much appreciated.
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Wow. Wow. Thank you, Dawn….
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Thank YOU, K! xo
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I must say this touched me a lot Dawn.. One of the stories that touched me most when I read it as very young was by Swedish Author Stig Dagerman. We read it at school, and I think it has had a positive effect on my driving. It seems to exist in translation:
http://www.dagerman.us/writings/short-stories/collections
Also there is a short film on youtube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B75F1vo5864 (but it seem to lack subtitles).
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Björn, thanks so much for your thoughtful comment. I’ll check out the links! thanks.
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Just found a translation on the web…
http://www.nybooks.com/blogs/nyrblog/2014/jan/31/to-kill-a-child/
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🙂 Thanks!
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Wow. What a touching story. You are such a strong woman. I often look at my children (ages 10 and 5) and silently pray to God that nothing happens to their father and me because their world would be destroyed. I see through your story that while it would certainly be the worst thing in their lives, yet they would ultimately be okay. I admire you so much.
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Thank you so much Janine. Your kind words mean a lot. No doubt, every parent shares those fears!
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Wow! Look at the flood of emotions and stories you opened up for so many folks today! If the man is still living, I’m sure that this moment in life is with him, just tucked away, but not forgotten. Thank you for writing about this. You have often talked about losing your dad when you were so young. This really seems like a closure after all.
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Thanks Mama. No doubt, there is never full closure after this kind of loss, but I feel like I’ve got closure around this part of it. I appreciate your support!
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What a powerful and moving piece of writing. I hope that I can too forgive one day, I am still on the anger phase
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Each of us is on our own path, and forgiveness is both personal, and not always attainable– I believe. Thanks so much for taking the time to visit TFTM, read this post, and share your thoughts; it’s much appreciated.
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Love this!!!
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Welcome to Tales From the Motherland, and thank you! I appreciate you taking the time to read my post, and share your thoughts.
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Such an inspiring, thoughtful, and touching read… And I can continue on with a number of different adjectives that describe this amazing post. A very moving story of forgiveness- you’re so strong on so many levels.
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Wow! Thanks so much unbelievablyunbounded! I really appreciate your very kind feedback. And thanks so much for visiting TFTM; your time is much appreciated.
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So sorry about your loss. I am happy you see him in your son’s face, and hear him whispering he is there. I’ve no doubt he is. Saw the movie “Book of Life” with my kids recently. If you can tolerate a children’s movie, see it next time you miss your dad. It gave me great solace regarding dealing with death of loved ones.
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Thanks so much indsay. I’ll have to check that out. Thanks so much for stopping by Tales From the Motherland!
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I salute you! Your strength is admirable!
Truly touched and inspired!!
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I really appreciate that; thanks for taking the time to visit TFTM and share your feedback. Your time and kind words are much appreciated.
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Your heart in this post is a beautiful gift to behold. Thank you.
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Thank you so much clumsytrex. Your generosity is much appreciated.
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Very moving and powerful.
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Thank you so much; I really appreciate that.
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Yea, its true that pain has no expiration date…its been five years and I still miss my dad…i miss him everyday….and the pain has not gone nor it pained less.
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I really understand your pain, and I’m so sorry for your loss, suvidhakannan. Thanks for taking the time to visit Tales From the Motherland, to read my story about my father. Clearly it is a personal topic for you as well. That means a lot to me.
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And you have wonderfully done it…it was so heart touching…made me to feel the loss, pain…
P.s. I am not expert but I just felt.
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None of us are “experts” when it comes to grief and loss. I really admire you for sharing here. Thanks!
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Such a beautiful thread, from your letter to the voices of family, friends, and strangers standing beside you in a place of forgiveness. Too often tragedy shelters us from peace, casting long shadows over joy as we struggle to move past a loss. I hope your words travel far, chasing shadows and inviting peace.
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Marie, your comment is very meaningful and kind. Thank you so much for stopping by Tales From the Motherland, to read my story and share your wonderful words.
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Miss you dad…
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You are brave. Please accept my condolences and love. I’m sure your dad is proud of you to have written this
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Thanks so much, itsallbuki. I hope my father would be proud of me. That said, I’m honored that you took the time to read this and share your kind words. Welcome to TFTM; I hope you’ll stop by again.
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Will do. Check out my blogspot too. You might find a story there that’ll catch your fancy
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After reading I thinks for a while WHAT SHOULD I COMMENT ,But There is NO words .YOU truly Great Dawn.
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Hasan202, those are some very kind words! Thanks so much. I appreciate you stopping by Tales From the Motherland; I hope you’ll come by again.
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This is truly powerful and made me tear up.
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Thanks Jordan! It’s good to move people… I appreciate your time and feedback.
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Great post!
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Thank you so much! I appreciate you taking the time to read it.
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A penetrating piece of remission. My heart bleeds and your fortitude, I admire. The ability to come this far in life without paternal guidance is quite simply inspirational. I salute you Ma’am. Your Dad would be proud. May his soul rest in eternal peace. Amen.
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Thank you very much nfadera. Your thoughtful words are much appreciated.
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Very powerful words. A very emotional post. You moved me. 🙂
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Thank you so much Maria! That means a lot to me. Thanks so much for stopping by TFTM; your time is much appreciated. 🙂
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Thanks so much for sharing my work; I really appreciate it!
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Loved reading your article. Good day!
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in memory of your papa…may his soul find true peace in your forgiveness…👌
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Thanks so much. I appreciate you taking the time to visit TFTM; please stop by again.
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What a beautiful post. Your an amazing woman!
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Thanks so much Tales. Read a few more of my posts and you may find me less impressive! 😉 Thanks so much for your kind words and for taking the time to read my work. It’s much appreciated!
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sre thing,also trying to bring our new blog to reality and touching,most of all,the very lives of those who love to read,and of course,write. Follow us and we will sirely follow you back,hoping you wouldnt mind us rebloging some content☺ Enchante!
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I never mind someone reblogging my material, as long as they provide a link to Tales From the Motherland, and give credit for my writing. Thanks for your request.
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To Become A New, We may all Need To Let Go, To Forgive, To Live, Leaving the Life of The Fallen Leaf and Letting Peace Fill Us, To Feel yet again..
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In memory of 100 years, the aftermath of The First World War… Long Live The Mother Earth!!
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story, and for sharing it on your blog. Your time and kindness are much appreciated.
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To hell with the 500 likes, you are worth so much more than that! Brave enough to bare such a personal thing, and loving enough to extend forgiveness, your precious spirit is a great example of what it means to be redeemed. We need a “love” button here, I love love love this kind of writing, this kind of person. Mwah!
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Thank you SO much Joan! Such kind, inspiring words; they are much appreciated indeed.
I’ll add: 500 is still my goal. 😉
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Great life story. We all have to look at forgiveness for a host of life altering circumstances. Sometimes hard to dig deep and agree with ourselves that we need to forgive. What a relief when we do no matter the cause of our pain.
We never know when we may be in need of forgiveness ourselves as a result of our walk in life and that will include the common everyday need or our part in a life altering situation for others we may come to be unforeseeably involved.
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Welcome to Tales From the Motherland; I really appreciate you stopping to read my words. True words indeed, brookscarpet! I have certainly needed forgiving, and admit that giving it is not always as easy as wanting it. Thanks so much for taking the time to read and leave your thoughtful comment. I’m grateful.
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Thank you, we all can do well to look for the good before looking at faults or reasons for blame.
Our nature, however on the average is to see adverse before good. Our struggle in life, works far better once we attribute to others, that which we desire ourselves, to be given a chance to be understood and have opportunity to make it right. Forgiveness opens doors that will be closed to us otherwise. Even, fault related change in a persons life as a result of another persons habits or negligence, if any, over unforseen occurrences that will visit all of us sooner or later, in some way, big or small, will have a good associated with it if we are willing to see through forgiving eyes of faith, in, for the most part, others true intention is to want to do good. Usually, the related benefit is like your article, in that, your life experience now publicized, can help many with their struggle and help them see others understand and so we are not alone. We can be in it together.
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What a wonderful thought! It would be wonderful if anyone else is helped by my sharing. While this is my personal journey, there are so many others who have experienced their own losses. Thanks again brookscarpet.
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My father was brutally murdered this year, i hope i will get to be as forgiving as you are. Lovely post
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Oh, Jouwiee, I am so very sorry for your loss. I might feel very differently if my father had been murdered. As a child, it felt the same: an accident and murder. Either way, my father was dead and I felt empty. As an adult, who has had lots of time to grieve, and work out my feelings, I’ve realized that I need to let go of my anger, to be healthier– myself.
Let yourself grieve; it’s so important. Check out the site SLAP’D (https://www.slapd.com/) it’s a great source of support. I wish you healing and peace, as you work through your feelings. Thank you so much for stopping by Tales From the Motherland. I so appreciate you taking the time to read my story, and share your very personal, painful thoughts.
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I’m left without words, except to say that I am so sorry even after all this time, for your loss. For the memories that you have missed. I commend you for your bravery in putting this post out there. I hope the healing continues. Best wishes.
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Thank you so much for your thoughtful, kind words. There is so much that I have missed, but I am who I am for both the missing and the having. Thanks for taking the time to visit Tales From the Motherland– to read and comment. Your time is much appreciated.
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This is beautiful
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Thank you for taking the time to read and share this story. I really appreciate it!
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Amazing!!! The bible tells us if we fail to forgive others he won’t forgive us. Forgiveness is a blessing straight from Gods heart to yours. God bless you.
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Thank you very much rebieswalley. I appreciate your kindness.
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This was beautiful. It was like a voyage in the sea of emotions you took us on. From anger, to understanding. I am way too young to understand certain aspects of it, but i try. Like i can understand, the hole left behind by your papa’s death is still not filled, but it’s not raw now. I am an avid reader. I have read many books with characters who are in situations similar to yours. They always move on. But for the first time, i got to read the real thing, the reality. I hope you well Dawn. By the way beautiful name! 🙂
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Thank you so much! I really appreciate your kind comment, and the time you took to read this.
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Personally I have been asked this question in passing…what would you do to the man who killed your father? I had an idea of what I would do and so did the person asking the question, but to us it was purely hypothetical. Thank you for sharing a story that is quite personal and for giving me a glimpse into another prospective of a now realistic scenario. This gives me hope in the kind and forgiving nature of humanity.
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Thanks for taking the time to read and comment. I’m sorry you lost your father too. I don’t know the circumstances, but we each have our own journey. It looks very different depending on where you’re coming from. I’m glad this letter shed a new light on a painful situation.
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I am sorry for the misunderstanding my father is alove and well but being a student amd coming from a cultire that puts quite an importance on family. I was ask hypothetically what I would do if said situation had happened. I had said that I would forgive that person if it would have happened. I thank you for showing me that what I thought was an idealistic situation (forgiveness) is a realistic one as well.
I apologise for the misunderstanding
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No, thank you for clarifying. It’s a wonderful thing to aspire to… though it is often different when we find ourselves IN something. I appreciate your kind words.
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Thank you again…true but your post puts things into prospective.
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Hoping to help the man who killed her father come across this post. God bless you both.
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Thank you so much for sharing my work! It is much appreciated.
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Your father must be smiling down on you. Your writing and all of these beautiful comments must surely have touched him. What an incredible response to this work of yours!
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Thank you so much C. Your love and support is a reflection of his. I feel it each time you look at me. xox
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Varanasi is one of my favorite cities in the world. Why have you sent only your email address?
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I started my blogging today…! I wish i could collect some followers.
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The best way to get new followers is to write, write, write! Post things that are of interest to you, on your blog. Reblogging other posts is a nice thing to do, but others readers most appreciate finding new things that they know you have written.
The next most important thing to do, to get followers, is to leave comments on other people’s blogs. Try not to put your email address or your blog link in the comment (a lot of bloggers don’t like that). Say something sincere about the blog post you are commenting on, and people will eventually find their way to your blog. Tell your friends and family to read your work; hopefully they will tell others.
When I first started blogging, I had NO followers for weeks!! Then I had one. I read other bloggers’ work; I commented and got to know them, and eventually they followed me too. Congratulations on starting your blog! Thanks for reading my letter.
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Thank you for this valuable suggestion 🙂
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Again, thank you for taking the time to read my work.
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Absolutely beautiful, Dawn. And what a powerful way to set yourself free, a heartfelt letter. Brave, bold and moving- never a surprise coming from you. I can’t imagine your father would be anything but deeply proud of you.
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Thanks Jen. I like to think that he and I would have been close… it’s impossible to know, but the idea is comforting. Thanks for your kind words. xo
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Such a great powerful article ,… made me cry ! forgiveness brings peace but only strong people have this quality.
God bless you always
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Thank you so much Shreya. I have had many years to find my strengths (and my weaknesses). No sooner do I find it, and it’s challenged again. Life is that way. Thanks so much for visiting Tales From the Motherland. I appreciate your time and kind works.
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Thank you for sharing my work; it is much appreciated.
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What a story! just in time for Christmas when we tend to forget the negatives in our lives and focus on the happy moments with our loved ones who are still with us. Best wishes to you Dawn…
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Thank you so much for reading this post and sharing your encouraging feedback.
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Dawn this was the first blog I have ever actually read all the way through. I must say you truly have a big heart, most people will go their whole lives with hate and remorse. It was a very moving piece of your life you have shared with us. And I am blessed to say I got to share it with you. Happy birthday to your father. I know he’s looking down on you. And now you have added yet another heart you have captured with your story.
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Leila, I’m very honored that you read this post all the way through. I debated for a while, whether to even post it. I wanted to write it, and have it be meaningful. Writing it, in itself was meaningful… but putting it out into the world, demanded that I really think about my intention and belief. Once I hit publish, I felt relieved… I needed to move through this one; it’s been a very long time, carrying it.
I really appreciate you taking the time to visit TFTM; I’m grateful you took the time to read this, and share your thoughtful feedback. Thanks!
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Though it took so long, but that is a forgiving heart.
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Thank you for sharing my work; it’s much appreciated!
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I feel happy for you that you found peace. I wish the other person does too. The only way is forward but with a mirror in our hand to see what we lost and what we gained.
I’d like to quote something from my favourite anime show, “Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain something of equal value must be lost.”
Although I know human lives cannot be ‘valued’ but I do know that we must look at everything we gain. You grew strong, independent. Maybe your dad not being there made you take some important decisions shaping who you are today.
May Peace be within you.
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Thank you Ashhar. I have no doubt that I am a different person today, than I would have been had my father lived. Of course, I would trade that in a second, for the years I lost with him– but there’s no doubt that we are who we are, for the steps we’ve taken and the experiences we’ve had. I appreciate you visiting Tales From the Motherland; come by again!
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Reblogged this on Life! and commented:
This is a very good write-up. And about something we should learn too.
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What a powerful story to write about! I salute your courage. Bless your journey. Beautiful!
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Thank you so much, Rina. I really appreciate you taking the time to read and comment; it means a lot.
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Dawn, this showed up in my reader yesterday and today. Today i finally read it. My heart is filled with many emotions. I shared this on FB in hopes that others will, too.
-noodle’s mom, Samantha
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I’m honored that you read it, and that you shared it. Thank you for your time and kindness; it is much appreciated.
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Oh Dawn, you’ve done it again – made me cry. What a wonderfully compassionate letter, beautifully written. I’m so sorry for the loss of your father. You are so wise to lay your burden down and forgive. Thanks for reminding all of us of the power of forgiveness. And congratulations on being Freshly Pressed again – so richly deserved. All the best, Terri
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Thanks so much Terri! In this SEA of new people commenting, it’s wonderful to see a familiar face. Thanks for supporting TFTM for so long! It means a lot.
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I feel for you. I inderstand how some of the commenters see that you wrote this with elegancre, no hatred. I lost my grandmother about 6 years ago. She however was murdered. Should I write a letter to her killer, it would be loathsome.
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I agree bfoxygrandma. My situation is vastly different than yours, and that of a couple other commenters. I don’t think I could write the same letter, if my father had been murdered… his loss has been too hard, as it is. I guess (and this is personal), over time, it was letting go… or moving through, my own anger and loss, to not carry that around– For ME, not anyone else.
I’m SO very sorry for your loss. It is horrible beyond comprehension. I hope you can find peace and healing… however that is for you. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my letter.
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hank you for sharing my work; it’s much appreciated!
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Dear Dawn, this is the very first post I’ve read on wordpress, and believe me, I am moved and solely touched by it. Although I don’t know you, I am so proud that you shared this, and were wise enough to forgive and let go. Happy thanksgiving!
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Welcome to Word Press, blogging, and Tales From the Motherland, mahafaisalsheikh96! I’m honored that you landed here first, and grateful that my work touched you. Honestly, I’m proud of myself too… this took far too long! Again, thank you for stopping by. I hope you’ll visit again, and share your thoughts.
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Dear Dawn, I am sorry for the many years of father/daughter moments of which you were cheated in the tragic and untimely loss of your dad. I lost my father seven years ago. . Although we had a full lifetime of memories/moments (we spoke every day) it still feels like it was not long enough. I can only imagine how you feel. I too heard that NPR program you wrote of and was haunted by the stories. One stayed with me involving the man who relayed his tale of accidentally shooting his brother in a hunting accident while both were boys. More tragically, his mother’s pleas that she did not want her younger son to go along that day, went unheeded. I believe the man in that story after wandering the world for a time eventually did something with his life to alleviate the pain though can’t recall what exactly it was, though he claimed it brought him peace. I hope you too can find that peace. My younger sister was struck by a hit and run driver when she was six years old. Although she only broke her leg, I often wonder about that driver and how he slept at night never knowing if he had killed a child. If you have time to visit my blog, I wrote a short tribute to my own father entitled “In The Company of Women” about his devotion to his four daughters. Your post was beautiful. Your father would be proud.
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Kathy, thank you so much for visiting TFTM. I really appreciate your wonderful comment– that NPR story was indeed deeply moving! It’s unfathomable to me how anyone could hit ANYONE, let alone a child, and leave. I understand fear; I understand panic, but how could you not stop. I have stopped and panicked over squirrels! Seriously. A child! Wow. I will definitely read your story… after I finish the hundreds of comments here. I have always felt that it’s very important to respond to EVERY comment. It means so much to me, that anyone would read my work, that responding (sincerely) is the least I can do in return. That said, it’s a long list this weekend! I’ve marked your story, and will get back to it. 🙂
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Wow! I am in tears reading this. I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story, it touched me deeply. You’re in my prayers!
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Thank you so much Meal-issa. I’m honored that you stopped by TFTM and took the time to read and comment.
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Very moving
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Thank you very much. I appreciate you taking the time to visit Tales From the Motherland, to read and comment.
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Reblogged this on Adventures by L & L and commented:
Beautifully written post, my experience tells me anger is like a cancer. It can consume you if you let it. God bless
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Thank you so much for the time you took to read this and comment. Your kind words are much appreciated.
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Powerful powerful letter
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‘Tis amazing, I could envisioned vivid pictures of all the scenarios, that was a big leap you took.
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Thank you for taking the time to read and comment; it’s much appreciated.
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Nice work
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Thank you very much.
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I’m so sorry about your loss. This story is amazing. Happy Birthday to your father!
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Thank you for your kind words, and for taking the time to stop by TFTM.
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Wow just wow, I was almost in tears….very brave, heartfelt and compelling read x
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Thank you very much. It means a lot to me, that readers were touched by my experience. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment; your time is much appreciated.
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Your story has touched my heart. How would I react to have someone I dearly love be taken from me. Could I forgive? Today I heard a story of a family that went to a prison to forgive the murderer of their only child. How do they find enough love in their hearts to allow this man such freedom? I look at your story, at these people’s gift to a man who took the most precious thing in their lives away, never being able to tell your loved one again that you love them. Never to celebrate new discoveries, birthday, marriages, births and losses together, gone forever. I pray I’m never in this situation but I pray harder that I will find the love you found to have forgiveness in my heart and love to those who have wronged me. Jesus forgave his murderers, you forgave a lost soul. The least we all can do is live to follow such amazing love for mankind. May God bless you for your understanding and love. May he bless us all with forgiving hearts and neverending, unconditional love. Thank you, you’ve touched my soul.
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Than you so much for your very kind words. I do want to clarify however, the man who killed my father is not a “lost soul.” He was a good man, involved in an accident. It took me a long time to move through my feelings; I’m honored that this letter touched you.
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Dawn, In 1980 my brilliant inventor husband was murdered. My three children were very young and with one phone call my life changed forever. It took me ten years to cry and write our story. (BEHIND THE MAGIC MIRROR) We still don’t know who the killer is for sure, but the best of my husband lives within my successful and talented children. At the time I was angry, ‘Why me God?’ Well, that one moment’s change in our lives has given us a passion and a cause to help others who are hurting. Nothing happens without a reason. I am so happy you have forgiven and are moving forward. It would be very good for him to know that. I hope you can find him to release his burden as well. Thanks for sharing.
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Sandra, thank you so much for taking the time to read this story and leave this wonderful comment. It means so much! I am so sorry for your horrific loss; it must have been unbearable at the time, but yes, things happen for a reason, whether we know that reason or not. I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment.
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Forgiven but not forgotten
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Forgiveness for something so catastrophic is just mountain-forming slow. This is powerful stuff. Thanks for sharing.
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Thank you so much, ginjuh! I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment. I was published on HuffPost this weekend too (a different story– when it rains!), and the comments there are much harsher. Thank goodness I can keep coming back to this story, for a dose of kindness. 😉
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Reblogged this on White Tea Land and commented:
I just wanna share this and hope the man can read this…
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Thank you. While I think it’s unlikely he’ll see it, it is a great thought! And I really appreciate you sharing my work.
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Yup.. nothing is impossible while word itself says “I’m possible”, even the persentage is small. 🙂 Anytime 😀
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Indeed. Thank you!
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Thank you so much for reading this and sharing my work.
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Thank you very much for sharing your experience. It got me to better understand people in the same situation. Happy birthday!
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Thank you! I really appreciate you taking the time to read this and share your thoughts.
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Good for you for sharing your sad story and being able to forgive the person who killed your dad. I don’t know the circumstances of your dad’s death, but as a city police officer in a large urban area, I see death all the time and wonder about the people before me, probably more than I should. Who will miss this dead person? What would he have been like had he lived to be an old man? Those sorts of things. Your dad’s killer surely carries a weight on his heart that troubles him from time to time. Unless he’s not human, it has to. Good luck to you.
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story and for sharing your personal response. I have often wondered about all of the first responders who face this all of the time. Thank you for doing a job that is challenging on so many levels!
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Made me cry. It’s amazing how far you’ve come and the emotions you’ve worked through this time to get where you are now. Hugs.
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Thank you so much. It has indeed been a long journey. I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment.
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Reblogged this on adifferentlifebeinglived and commented:
Moving letter to the man who killed her father.
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Thank you so much for reading my work and then sharing it. Your time and kindness are much appreciated.
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it is truly great to forgive someone…not everyone has the power to do so….i really appreciate your bravery…some incidents change your life…its easy to not like anyone but it is as tough to forgive someone who altered our life that much…thank you for sharing n showing us how to be brave…
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Thank YOU for taking the time to read my story, and share your thoughts. It is much appreciated.
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Lily, thank you so much for sharing my work; it is much appreciated!
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Yours is a heartfelt story of forgiveness, told with loving care. Thank you for sharing with the world.
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Thank you so much for reading it.
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I can only give you a applause on the letter that you wrote to someone that has taken someone so close to. You carry strength in your forgiveness.
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Thank you very much Bonae. I appreciate your response.
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Very impressive read.. And a catchy title. I had to stop and read when i saw it in my feed. Ill be stopping by your fb page.
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read, comment, and visit my FB page; I really appreciate your time and thought.
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This is a wonderful piece that should be read by anyone who is grieving. It makes me rethink my own feelings about my father’s death, though it was much later, and due to a medical mistake. I like the way you acknowledge the hole, but also are able to move on with life still in the presence of the hole and his presence. I need to work on that. Thank you.
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Thank you. I am not sure that the “hole” can ever be filled, but it helps to fill some of it with forgiveness. Moving through hard things is a positive way of feeling good about the positives, while not remaining stuck in the negative stuff. I appreciate your time.
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Dawn, this piece is simply a gem:) It’s something i, being into writing myself, would love to keep coming back to, for valuable tips in writing! That apart, i also feel very inspired from your brave story!Thanks for sharing:)
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Welcome to Tales From the Motherland, sahanish45. I appreciate the time you took to read and comment. I hope you will come back and read more!
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Reblogged this on Escape to Black And White and commented:
Simply beautiful…
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Thanks for sharing this post; I really appreciate it. 🙂
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Thank you so much for reading and sharing my work; it is much appreciated.
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Very powerful post. Shared on FB. Hope you find the man.
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Thanks Laurie! I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment. Thanks for stopping by TFTM. 🙂
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Wow! Powerful!
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Thank you very much. I appreciate you taking the time.
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Am touched by your story …its difficult to forgive but we have to.Life must go on…thanks for sharing Madame.
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Thank you for taking the time to read and comment; it is much appreciated.
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share my work; it’s much appreciated.
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A beautifully written and raw insight on love, anger and growth.
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Thank you so much. I really appreciate your feedback, and the time you took to read my story.
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This is so touching, I am proud of you and you are a strong women!
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Thank you so much. That means a lot to me.
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Thank you so much for sharing my work. Your time and kindness is much appreciated.
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This is the best thing I’ve ever read.
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Wow! Thanks for taking the time to read it and share your thoughts. It’s much appreciated.
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Reblogged this on The Legion of Door Whores and commented:
Tragic yet the power and freedom that comes with forgiveness can be liberating.
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Thanks so much for sharing my work. I appreciate the time you took to read and share my work. Thanks!
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Wow – it impresses me that you are replying to each post. I have a cousin who was killed in her car by a train many years ago, as young as your dad, and I never thought much until today about the engineer and how that effected his life. I didn’t blame him but maybe he needs to feel forgiven, too. Thank you.
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Thanks so much for reading my work. I’m so sorry about your cousin. That must have been a real trauma for your family. I have a cousin who is a train engineer, ironically. It is in fact a VERY traumatic thing for engineers, and there are all kinds of counseling options for them, but many really struggle with that. Suicide, on train tracks is very common, and they carry a lot of guilt.
Regarding comments: I have always responded to every comment. I feel strongly, that if you, or anyone else takes the time to read my work, I’m sincerely honored and grateful. I was published on Huffington Post for the first time on Sunday– a very controversial piece. The comments have been pretty hateful, and while I tried to keep up at first, I was advised (by “the professionals”) that I should not continue. It was exhausting and there’s no answer for some of the remarks… that happened the day after this was FP’ed; so there were literally hundreds of comments to answer! I really appreciate you noticing that… as it’s something I try hard to honor.
Again, thanks for your time and thought.
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I’ve been reading your blogs. And excitedly decided to follow you.
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Thanks so much! I’m honored, and grateful.
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http://pialblogbd.wordpress.com/
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Pial, thank you for reading my story. In general, it’s appreciated if you leave a few words, rather than just leaving your own blog link. Thanks for taking the time.
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I loved your letter, and if I had been that unfortunate driver, I would be greatly comforted. Your father would be proud of the positive way you have processed your loss and grief. Your children will profit from this, and so his death is elevated to an enduring presence in the family.
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Thank you so much! Those are very comforting words; I appreciate both your time and your kindness. I hope you’ll stop by to read more at TFTM.
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Very touching letter…I hope the person it is addressed to find it and liberate himself to live rest of his life in peace. And, you dear are really a courageous soul! Bless you!
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Thank you very much, Ema. I so appreciate your kind words and the time you took to leave them. Thanks for stopping by TFTM!
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You are most WC dear 🙂
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RIP Robert Quyle … I really touched about your story and how brave you are to forgive the man who killed him… As humans we have to forgive because things works in this universe in mysterious ways . Nothing can fulfill the father or mother presence but we need to live and we need to think of our future and put the hate and sorrow away …
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I totally agree. Thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts, and read my story.
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Beautiful act of forgiveness during this holiday season…
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Jessica I appreciate the time you took to read my work and share it; thank you.
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Life’s too short! Forgiving even though it once hurted us
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Thanks! I totally agree… of course, it took me a few years to get there! 😉
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Life is too short!
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amazing i am deeply touched
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Thank you so much. I’m honored that you took the time.
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you’re welcome
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Morgan, thank you for taking the time to read and share my work; it is much appreciated.
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Reblogged this on amaalali and commented:
Amazing story , a brave women share her tragedy and how she forgive after all these years .
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Thank yo so much. I’m not sure I am all that brave, but it was certainly time to move on. Thank you for sharing my work.
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I almost choked up, and I never do that. You’re a lot braver than I could ever be.
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Don’t sell yourself short, Zenith. This took me a LONG time! We all have our own journeys, and the baggage we carry. This was just published on Huffington Post today; I’m hoping it’s received as well there. 🙂
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Such a powerful piece. It’s inspired me to think about writing a piece about losing my dad. You’re an incredible writer. I am truly inspired.
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Thank you so much! I hope you will indeed right that. This post was published on Huffington Post today. It’s an honor that so many people have taken the time to read it, and share their thoughts.
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Woo, its the one amazing thing I’ve ever read. Its really very amazing.
While I was reading the letter, I was feeling like, I am watching the whole thing in front of me.
Amazing, just superbbb…
Don’t know what to say, but it’s amazing,,,
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Thank you SO much! That is an “amazing” comment! Thanks for making me smile. It was just published on Huffington Post today; hopefully other readers will feel the same. 🙂
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My Pleasure Dear 🙂
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A very moving letter. You have done well to reach the point of forgiveness. I hope you do find out more about what happened and the driver involved. It would be amazing if you could ever meet him – for the sake of both you. I am sure the man must have been devastated.
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I can only imagine, but yes, it would be deeply meaningful to meet him. I’ve been very touched by the many responses. It was published on Huffington Post today, and I can only hope the responses there are as kind. Thank you for taking the time!
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And…I am very sorry for your loss. Hugs and prayers, Fiona
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Thanks Fiona; that means a lot.
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Hey everyone.
I just recently started blogging. My blogs are about media law, its not boring, I promise ya. However, ur likes, comments and FOLLOWS would really help me! 🙂
Btw very good blog, very entertaining OP!
THANK YOU!
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Thanks for taking the time to advertise your blog on my comments section. I’m not sure this post was “entertaining,” did you read it? My advice, as someone who’s done it for a while, and has done pretty well at it: connect with other bloggers. Don’t just drop by and toot your own horn. Not many of us are likely to visit your blog, when we feel used. Either way, I wish you well in blogging…
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This is so beautifully written. I lost my biological father when I was only 4 months old and didn’t find out the truth until I was 13. I tried searching him online well the death at least and found an article on the death and all that. It was so sad to read and I was angry. I wanted to know answers after all these years. I found the name of the man that killed him, how I still want to find him in whatever pit he is rotten in and demand answers. Would my life be different had he been alive? I am 21 years old now, I have a 2 year old with my boyfriend of 7 years and I am in college. I guess things didn’t turn out as bad after all 🙂 Glad I found your post. Take care
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Thanks so much for your very personal response – What a truly challenging set of events. I’m so sorry for your loss. I don’t believe that finding answers always helps, but I do agree that your life sounds full and hopefully happy. I really appreciate you taking the time to read this and share your own experience.
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Forgiveness is a powerful action, though it took some years you were very brave and strong to give your forgiveness. I aspire to be more forgiving, especially for the little things. I hope that you find him. http://givingmybestblog.wordpress.com
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Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts and read my work; it is much appreciated.
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Your welcome and thanks for following.
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To free yourself from the weight that you have carried for so many years will allow to see the memories of your father ever more clearly. Like you mentioned, you can only guess how life would have turned out if that day was different. However, you have 10 years of wonderful memories that you can now see in full view. Good for you. I wish you all the best this and every holiday season.
Robert the DividendDreamer
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Thank you Robert. I really appreciate you taking the time to share your thoughts, and read my work.
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Reblogged this on foto300 and commented:
Un artículo único…la importancia del perdón.
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Muchas gracias. I appreciate you sharing my work.
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Wow, this brought me to tears. Not just the few that slowly fall from your eyes, but the kind that pour out and leave you breathless. You’re a strong woman!
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I’m sorry to make you cry, Kailey, but grateful that you read my work and were moved. 😉 Thanks!
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Nice post!
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Thank you very much! I appreciate you taking the time.
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Firstly, thank you for sharing something so personal. It’s amazing how you put the past behind. How your long built hatred changed into a silent understanding.
If I were to name you as a character in my stories, perhaps you would be The Forgiving. 🙂 have a great day.
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Thank you so much. I’m not sure I’ve earned that name; it took me an awfully long time to get there! Growing up helped! 😉 I appreciate you taking the time for my story; thanks!
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Thank you for sharing my work; I really appreciate it!
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This is absolutely beautiful! I can identify how u feel since my mom passed away in a car accident when I was 10 as well. They are always with us, that I can tell
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I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing your mother must have been very traumatic. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my story, and share yours. Thank you!
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i’ve never experienced a loss like yours but this post hit home for me because I’m not the best at letting go of old grudges. Thank you for this and I’m sorry for your pain.
Danika
http://www.danikamaia.com
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Danika, I still work on that too! This one took me 40 years!
:-p Thanks for taking the time to read this story, visit my blog and comment; it’s much appreciated!
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This brought me to tears! Beautiful, i will reblog!!
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, and share it; I appreciate it. It was posted on Huffington Post yesterday, but not as much traffic; Word Press rocks! 😉
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Very moving, emotional and touching post! Please read..
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Thank you so much for sharing my work; it means a lot to me.
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It was beautiful!
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Thanks!
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A Must read to know the real meaning of “Forgiveness!”
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Thank you so much for sharing my story; I really appreciate it.
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My pleasure…i Hope i help uin some way to reach ur destination…God bless!..Blessings from India!
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India! India is my favorite place, and somewhere I’ll want to return to. Thank you!
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Welcome Madame!
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You must have had a Very tough Heart to write this!..How important Forgivness is a part of human life!
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Thank you ReynoldRV9, I think. A “tough heart,” is that a compliment? I appreciate you taking the time to read my work and comment.
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Yes indeed…!!
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Thanks. 🙂
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Vanessa, thank you so much for sharing my work; I really appreciate your kindness.
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Excellent Post !
Learning to live with life is probably harder to do than dealing with death. The most important line and the best line I read was the “I forgive you” at the end.
I happen to be 51 too and during my life I’ve seen people come and go in life and in death. I was adopted, traced natural parents,lost family in death and through divorce,had a child with cancer,had years of unemployment but through it all I’ve managed to keep perspective and still look to living life with endless possibilities. Writing my blog and living an alternative lifestyle helps me though too (its at http://www.freewilluk.wordpress.com if you’re interested)
Keep up with the blog and keep smiling 🙂
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Thank you for stopping by to read my post on Tales From the Motherland, Activist. I appreciate your time and perspective.
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Sooo very moving! So brave of you to do the one thing that we always need to do to heal – forgive and let go of the past. I had a very complex relationship with my Dad, and I can’t remember him without being weighed down with thoughts of what might have been… He died 7 years ago at 81.
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I think that it’s much harder to move on from the complexities of a relationship that took place over many years. I hope you can find peace, and move through this– for your own piece of mind.
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Wonderful…I lost my dad too as a young person (25 not 10) and I just think you captured so much here worth reading…
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I’m so sorry for your loss, greeniechicken. In certain respects, I imagine that would be harder, as a young woman to lose your dad, when there’s so much more life that you’d love to share with him. Again, I’m so sorry. I appreciate you taking the time to visit TFTM and share your experience.
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It’s a really good thing you no longer carry the anger you once had, its remarkable, actually. I comend you for your bravery and ability to let go of the past. *Virtual hug* 🙂
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Thanks for that gab7107. I really appreciate the hug and the kind words. Thanks so much for taking the time to visit TFTM; it’s much appreciated.
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I felt quite emotional reading that. Wow. So heartfelt, full of pain, love and forgiveness. Not everyone could set that pain and anguish aside. Even fewer could share their thoughts so well. I think your Dad is looking down and glowing with pride for you.
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Thank you so very much for this very thoughtful and kind feedback. I appreciate you taking the time to read my work and share your thoughts. Thanks!
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This is so amazingly beautiful. The sound of forgiveness and compassion in your letter is one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard! I’m so sorry for your loss, but God will make it up to you. He’s already started… by giving you a loving husband and three wonderful kids (though no one can take the place of your precious father). Take care and all the best to you!
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Thank you very much for your very kind comment. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my work, and share our thoughts.
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Wow what a beautifully written post. I could feel each emotion as I read it. I too lost my father in a motorcycle accident. It’s been 14 years and I have finally found peace with it but I clearly remember the anger that goes along with such a loss. I wish you luck in finding the man you are looking for.
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Thank you so much Missy; I appreciate your time and your sharing. I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s a difficult thing to carry; I’m glad you’ve found peace.
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You are most welcome i really loved it 🙂
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What a nice post!
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Thank you so much! I appreciate you taking the time to read it and share your feedback.
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You are absolutely right , there is no expiration date when it comes to pain. I still have not grieved for my father and it has been years. I am afraid if i do allow myself to grieve that he will just ” not be” anymore. I feel if I still hurt over his loss that I still have something there, like he is still here. I am not sure if that makes any kind of sense , it does in my head, than again I am an odd thinking person. Your story is inspiring and you are a very strong person to be able to forgive. Do not get me wrong, the man does have a right to be forgiven considering it truly was an accident. i just am not that strong . YET… Thank you for sharing your story.
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Constance, thank you so much for reading my story and sharing yours. I think forgiveness is a very personal thing, but I was just telling someone very close to me, today, that holding on to grief doesn’t really help anyone, but often holds us back from other emotions, we could be experiencing. Only you can figure that out, but maybe there’s a good way to focus that grief into something that helps you move forward. I think it’s very unlikely that your father will ever be gone; clearly you will always hold him close. 🙂 Thank you for sharing!
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Reblogged this on Cheeky Mommy Says and commented:
This is so admirable and I sincerely hope this letter finds its way to whom it was meant for.
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Thank you! I really appreciate you taking the time to read and share this.
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You’re welcome. I have also lost a parent too soon and your words really spoke to me. Good luck.
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I’m so sorry for your loss; I’m touched that my words touched you. It’s a tough loss for sure!
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Very deeply touched story…
Pray for our father..
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Thank you; that is so kind of you. I appreciate you taking the time to read and share this.
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*sobs*
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Sorry! But thank you for taking the time to read and share this; it is much appreciated.
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This is heart warming. Thanks for sharing!
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Thank YOU for taking the time to read it; I really appreciate that.
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Please pray for the Philippines as we brace for a new supertyphoon this weekend. Regards and more stories ftom you.
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Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. Prayers for you safety and well being.
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True wisdom and true strength. You’re an inspiration and I hope that for anyone still clinging to hatred, May they find the peace you have found at last.
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Thank you so much. I really appreciate your kind words, and the time you took to read this and comment.
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Wow, amazing story. My eyes welled up.
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Thank you for taking the time to read it. I appreciate your kind response.
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Wow. Just wow. I will like and share this. You have an amazing heart and are an exmaple of the evolution of thr human psyche. I applaud you. I hope this reaches the intended reader. You’ve also helped me as a writer and fledgling blogger.
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Thank you so much, O. Salim. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my work and share such a meaningful comment. I hope you’ll check out more on Tales From the Motherland.
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Time can heal all wounds. The heart and the mind evolve, if you let them. Thanks, Dawn.
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Thank you so much for sharing my work. It is a wonderful compliment, and much appreciated.
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You are very welcome. I don’t think that there are many people in this world who can take a step back and see it the way that you have been able to. I know it does not stop the pain, but it is very brave. I am so glad you shared, very touching!
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Thank you for sharing my work, KeniChè. I appreciate the time you took to read it and share it with others.
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Help her find the man she is seeking.
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Credits due
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Thank you so much for sharing my work Aaron; I appreciate your kindness.
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This is the most moving piece I’ve read in a long time, thank you for sharing.
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Thank you so much. I really appreciate you taking the time to read it and share your thoughts. Interestingly, it was featured on Huffington Post too, and received much less notice. Word Press is amazing that way!
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Your account really touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes, I have shared your message on Facebook. Well done for embracing such a encouraging positive spirit. Keep strong xx
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Thank you so much! I really appreciate you taking the time to read this, share your thoughts and then share the post. Ironically, it got a lot less notice on Huffington Post; I was hoping it might be seen by more people there, and perhaps reach the “right” hands. It would be amazing to find the man I wrote it for. Thanks again for your thoughtful comment!
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This article really touched my heart. I have shared this and reblogged it. I sincerely hope that others share this essential message too.
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I really appreciate you taking the time to read my work and share it; thanks!
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This is so incredible and I applaud you for being able to find peace, something so many struggle with. This is such a beautiful piece and I hope one day you do manage to find this man so you can find peace together.
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Thank you so much. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my post and share your thoughts.
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Wow I pray somehow you two have the chance to meet, and I am very sure the burden on the man’s shoulder would finally drop off when he gets to hear you say to him in person that you have forgiven him. Thank you for forgiving him because it is not an easy thing to do. This has touched me immensely
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Sheila, thank you so much for your kindness and generosity. I appreciate you taking the time to read my work and share it.
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All I can say is Wow. You are an amazing woman. I am deeply sorry for the loss of your father, especially at such a young age, but you seem to have turned into a wonderful, thoughtful, beautiful woman. Thank you for sharing.
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And thank you so much AndiMirandi, for your thougtful feedback. I appreciate you taking the time to read my work, and share your generous thoughts.
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It’s so brave ur ! It must be hard to forgive a man who changed your whole life.—forgiveness release yourself.
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Thank you so much, chengdouxing. I really appreciate your kind words.
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Thank you for sharing my work!
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Reblogged this on Ben Garrido's Author Page and commented:
This is amazingly touching. The strength you show in letting go of revenge is inspiring.
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Thank you so much for your kind words and your time. I appreciate you sharing my work.
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Do you mind me asking how the desire for revenge made you feel all those years?
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I can’t say that I felt a desire for revenge… I just felt angry, and lost. I missed my dad; I felt sad. I don’t think I ever thought about getting even, or wanting revenge. Thanks for taking the time.
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You’re very welcome. I had an experience with deep enduring anger. For me, the scariest part was my desire for revenge. The end of my anger was, I’m ashamed to say, more a consequence of fatigue than anything else.
Your story really brought it back to me. Thanks.
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When you say “really brought it back to me,” I’m hoping my story did not bring back the anger? As for fatigue… I’m personally not sure whether it matters how we let the anger go (short of fulfilling revenge or harm to self/ others) but letting it go, eventually, is a great place to start healing. All the best!
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Dear Dawn,
I just wanted you to know that your story touched me and that I know your father is very proud of you. Be at peace.
Aloha,
Doug
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Thank you so much, Doug. It’s been a long journey to this juncture. Aloha!
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Words fail me…. but i would like you to know how deeply your letter has touched my heart…. i look for goodness in this world, coz i know it is still out there, it HAS to be…. and when i find little treasures like this, i should feel blessed… and i do…..
My good wishes with you.
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Thank you so much! It has been really amazing to me just how many people have read this, here on WordPress! When it was published on Huffington Post, it barely got noticed. What a wonderful community here; thank you for being a part of that, and for your kind words. They are much appreciated.
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Praise God! What a blessing that you have found such healing. Thank you for sharing your story. My heart aches for your pain, yet tears of joy fill my eyes for where you are now. *hugs*
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read it and share your thoughts.
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What a beautiful example of courage and vulnerability and forgiveness! Thank you for sharing. Your letter really touched my heart. Bless you for being so brave and open!
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Thank you so much LittleT; I’m grateful for your kind feedback, and the time you took to read and comment.
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Ouch touched a nerve…but I thinks it’s brilliantly written xx
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Thank you so much. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my story, and share your thoughts.
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Reblogged this on Michelle Not Shelly and commented:
I’m hoping to help this woman locate the man she’s seeking. This is a great story and one I think most people can relate to. One simple incident causes ripples that are felt decades later.
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Thank you so much for sharing my story, winterschild67. I appreciate your time, and your kind efforts to share this family.
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👍love it
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WOW !!! This was so nice to read even thou I needed a box of tissues on hand thanks for sharing this.
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Thank you so much Jessie! I really appreciate you taking the time to read it and leave your thoughts.
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Dear Dawn, I had no idea that you went through this. I am so very sorry that you really never knew your father. My Dad was wonderful, but I did lose him when I was 32 of a heart attack. Somehow, I always thought I was robbed of my Daddy. Walking through the airport the night he died, I noticed all the men that were my Dad’s age (he was 61) and thought to each one of them “Why couldn’t it have been you and not my Dad? Silly thought by a young woman with four young children and a wonderful husband. I was mad at the world and yes, I was mad at God for taking him too.soon – I wanted him for my mother, my boys and my sister and her family.
God Bless you Dawn! I have known you for a year now and it has been rewarding on my part for sure. Merry Christmas sweetie! Nan
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Nan, I’m so sorry for your loss. There is no time that is easy for that huge loss. Thanks for your kind words and support. My life’s path was changed that day, for sure… but I accept that.
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A beautiful post Dawn. So very well written and so much from the heart. Well done.
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Thanks Sandra. It’s taken on a life of its own… but your feedback means a lot. Thanks for taking the time.
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My pleasure
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This is an amazing letter. I wish you all the best with your search. I’m sorry you went through all that you did in the past but I’m happy for you that it has molded you into the person you are. Your very courageous and may God bless you endlessly. Happy Holidays
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Thank you so much for your kind comment, and for sharing my work. This letter was very freeing for me, and I’m glad it touched so many other people.
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Simply beautiful
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Thank you! I really appreciate you taking the time to read my work and share it.
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Bless you
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Thank you. Your kind comment means a lot, and thank you for sharing my work.
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Thanks for reading my work and sharing it on your blog. Your time is much appreciated.
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Thank you for this story. There are passages I found my eyes moving very slow through and then reading again because although our stories are not the same, I saw my thoughts on your page. Your forgiveness is very powerful. New follower, here 🙂
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Thank you so much blogwoman. I appreciate you taking the time to read my work and share your thoughts. And welcome to Tales From the Motherland; I hope you enjoy what you read here. 😉
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I’ve read several stories, where a victim’s family wants to make peace with the person or people who took their loved one away. A brave act indeed.
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Thanks so much for taking the time to read my story, and share it. I haven’t read that many stories, but did hear the one piece on NPR– it was very moving. I had NO idea this post would be so big….
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Reblogged this on Ramblings of a Barren Heart and commented:
If you know this person please let the author know so she can speak with him.
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Thank you so much for reading my work and sharing it. Your kindness is much appreciated.
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“pain doesn’t always have an expiration date” this is so beautiful! it feels like i am letting go and also in some way receiving forgiveness. you are a very brave person! and it hurts my heart to know about the hole in your lives.
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Trish, thank you so much for your very kind words. I think that grief is enduring, but we heal. I am a stronger person for the things I’ve grieved. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my work, and for visiting Tales From the Motherland. I appreciate your lovely feedback.
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Incredible writing Dawn. I wrote a similar letter when i was younger, “to cancer” who took my father when i was only three months old. There is so much healing in writing this. I applaud you and send you much love.
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Urban Diva, I appreciate you taking the time to read this post and share your own personal experience. Thanks!
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Forgiveness is a powerful blessing. I re-blogged this! I just wrote something similar about forgiving my abusive ex-husband. Thank you for sharing your story.
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Thoughtfulstroll, welcome to Tales From the Motherland. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my work and share it. You kind feedback and effort is much appreciated; thank you!
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I can’t imagine that if and when this man reads this letter, how he would feel then.
Thank you for sharing this
(:
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Thanks Duck. I have little hope that he will see it… though I continue to wish. 😉
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Well, if that is in fact what little miss Tinkerbell is sprinkling everyday on your page then we better wish for it !
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Great piece on forgiveness, struggle and love. It motivates me to finally write and a violent death my family experienced years ago. Will need to see if I’m ready to pick at that scab out not….
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It’s a very personal journey, Heidi; my guess is that, when it’s the right time, you’ll know it. Thanks for thoughts and support.
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Dawn,
What a moving piece, packed with deep emotions, touching remembrance, and genuine forgiveness. Wonderfully inspirational!
Recognition of this article is well deserved!
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Thanks so much Jan. It’s gotten a lot of attention, but to be named a Voice of the Year– huge! I am deeply honored. Thank you so much for your kind comment, and the time you took to read this.
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Dear Dawn! I know that it’s a long list of comments, but I too would like to thank you for this heartfelt and honest post on your loss of your father. I would like to make a pingback to your post in a future post on helping children to come through grieving. Love from Maria ( a former Health Visitor)
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Maria, thank you very much for taking the time to read this piece, and reach out to comment. I appreciate your time, and always appreciate having my work shared. Thanks for reaching out!
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So moving. I wonder if the motorist ever read this.
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I doubt it, but I’ve wondered the same thing. He is an old man now, and I had hoped maybe someone who knew him/the story, might see it. Alas… as long as it is shared, the chance remains, and it’s been shared a lot. Thanks Patrick!
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My emotions have surfaced with every word I read. Extremely, touching and forgiving.
This line says it all “pain doesn’t always have an expiration date”.
Isadora 😎
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It is a motto I use often, in my work with Hospice and in my own life… there is no expiration date. Thanks Isadora.
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🙂 Big hug to you! 🙂
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Thank you so much. I appreciate you taking the time to read my work, and comment.
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A poignant story of forgiving- a very difficult thing to do considering the pain suffered over many years.
Quite brave of you, Dawn.
Time is the greatest healer though.
Thanks.
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Vapopya, thank you so much. I really appreciate you reading my work, and taking the time to share such kind words in response. It is much appreciated.
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Anytime, Dawn.
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What a beautiful post! The writer is a woman of true grace who has a heart a lot bigger than mine. If I was in her place I could not be so kind.
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Thank you so much for reading my work, and sharing your thoughts. Honestly, you are too kind. It took me 40 years to write this, and I think it was long overdue. Bad things happen in life, and holding on to them serves no one. I appreciate your kindness.
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Very good story and you are brave
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Thank you very much. I don’t consider myself brave, in this respect. Life threw me this curve ball, and I have spent much of my life coming to terms with it. However, I really appreciate your kind words.
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This is powerful! I do hope he sees it. If not, I hope he didn’t die blaming himself. That’d be so much sadder.
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I could not agree more, Ferddhie. I’d love it if he saw this, somehow, but also hope that he didn’t carry it with him. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment.
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When I saw the topic I thought I’d cry while reading it. My dad was killed in 2004 by a tired trucker and I’ve often imagined writing or talking to that driver. I was lucky in that I got 48 years, you had only 10. I found I read this dry-eyed…saying “Yes, Yes, YES!” It was as if you were inside my mind.
I am so sorry this happened to your family. You are right, grief has no expiration. You have grown into such an amazing person, evidenced by this piece. Who knows what you might have been if your dad had been around longer. But I do know that he’s very proud of you. And will always love you, as you love him.
Hugs.
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Thank you so much Dawn. We are both Dawn’s, and I lived in MI for a long time. Seems we share quite a few things. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this piece, and share your own personal story. It means a lot to me.
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Your words truly amaze my feeble heart, and enlighten my very tiny mind.
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Thank you for taking the time to read my work. I refuse to see your heart as feeble or your mind as tiny; I am just grateful that you took the time and that my work moved you. Thank you!
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It’s so beautiful and I am happy that you have moved on……. Such a beautiful piece
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Thank you so much. I appreciate your kind words.
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I am trying to learn your idiom. Read this was better experience. I understand your pain, and I invite you to look at how has challenged many hearts at writer your story. Continue, is moment for what most people appraise the life, the family. Grateful.
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Thank you for your kind response. I appreciate you taking the time! Gracias!
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I enjoyed your blog it had some great points and if you get a chance check out my blog https://jaycolby.wordpress.com/
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Thanks Jay. I took a look at yours as well. I didn’t leave a link, but I was there. 😉
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Wow….!
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Thanks! I appreciate you taking the time.
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Extremely motivating.
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Thank you very much.
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Moving and inspiring – thank you
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Thank YOU for taking the time; it’s much appreciated.
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Wow, not only is it a great story, its inspirational…I love it
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Thank you very much; that means a lot!
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Touching…
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Thank you so much for sharing my work, and for your kind words. Both are much appreciated.
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This is amazing!! You are an amazing writer. The subtle way in which you have penned down the deep desire of your heart, to let go off the man who was the reason of your heart ache is incredible. I wish you have a wonderful family and a great future. 🙂
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Thank you so much for this very kind comment! This piece has been viewed in a lot of places now, and a lot of sites. I’m honored and touched by the incredible reception, by so many caring people. Thank you for your lovely comment; it is much appreciated.
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I am greatly admire the way you chose to forgive and forget than hold grudges. Losing a family member is tough. Loads of good wishes for you and ur family. Visit my blog: perspectivesandshades.wordpress.com. I will b honored to receive a review from you on my writing..
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This article touched something so deep within my soul and got me cry! I too lost my dad though at an earlier age than you did. I was a little child, only 5 years old back then. I couldn’t agree more that no matter how successful or loving as a woman and as a wife and being blessed with a wonderful husband, it still creates a hole inside the soul. A hole that never disappears.
Thank you thank you thank you Dawn Quyle for writing this from your heart. It absolutely reached my heart.
I wrote an article about the topic that can be found here: I Never Wave Goodbye! | Stories of Saudis
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Noor, thank you so much for this powerful response to my piece. I really appreciate you sharing your feelings, so honestly, as well as your own experience. I’m so sorry for the loss of your father. It’ is indeed a painful thing to carry through life. I also appreciate your following my blog; thank you for that. All the best in this New Year!
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Thanks for sharing my work; it’s much appreciated!
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Wow! You’ve a beautiful heart Dawn. You’re one of the reasons why I still believe in the goodness of the human heart. I feel sorry for your loss, but I’m so proud for what you have become. May i be permitted to share this. Thank u!
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Thank you so much Jeng. I appreciate your lovely comment and kind support. It’s been a long time, and it felt good to move on in a healthy way. And yes, of course you can share this post, as long as you include a link back to this site. I’m honored, thank you!
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Thank you, too.
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This article is very powerful and reminded me my father. I couldn’t help myself but to cry. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Happy New Year!
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Thank you so much for your kind words and support. I appreciate you taking the time.
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What a beautiful piece of writing. Straight from the heart.
My Mum died when I was 17 and it was from a ruptured aneurism. I wanted to blame the Doctors, but I sort of instead took the same pathway as you. I relate to this somehow.
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Thanks so much for sharing. I know a lot about aneurisms, and sadly, there is often nothing you can do. I’m so very sorry that you lost your mother to one. I appreciate you sharing your own experience; thank you.
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Dawn, thank you for this heartfelt post. So many points rang true to my own journey. The 4th would be my dads 75th. I wrote a tribute in his honor today. I feel God led me to your post for continued healing. Thank you.
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read my work; it’s much appreciated. May your father’s memory be a blessing.
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I have always found it weird in me that I do not remember past instances to the very detail as most people do. I easily forget my past except a faint image of it being good or bad. After reading your post I feel relieved that sometimes it is good that I do not remember, for then I do not have to relive the bad times.
Your post is heart-touching and very brave. Specially loved the way you put it, ‘We all need something to grab on to, when we’re drowning’.
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Thank you so much for your kind words, and for taking the time to read my work; it’s much appreciated. I’ve always been someone who has very strong, vivid memories. That is indeed a blessing and a curse, depending on the situation. Thanks again for sharing your thoughts.
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This is such a beautiful piece… Thank you for sharing such a personal story, it’s incredibly inspiring as much as it is heart-breaking. I’m happy to read that you’ve found the space in your heart to forgive and to move on. Thank you for a wonderful read.
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Thank YOU for taking the time to read this piece and share your thoughts. It has been a long and complicated journey. I appreciate your kind words and support.
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It’s such an amazing story, everyone can make a mistake but not easy to have a forgiveness. God bless you, cause you can forgive him.
I reblogged this on colourfulworlds.wordpress. com
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Thank you so much for your kind words and for sharing my work; both are much appreciated.
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Such as an amazing story. Everyone can make a mistake but not easy to have a forgiveness. God blessed you, you can forgive
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Thanks so much. I’ve made plenty of mistakes, and I’m grateful every time someone forgives me. I appreciate you taking the time to read my work and share your thoughts; thank you!
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Reblogged this on The Missal.
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Thank you so much for sharing my piece; it’s much appreciated!
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This is so touching..i was expecting you to be cursing the man and all that but this was different. I really don’t think i’ld be brave enough to let the pain hate and burden i had been bearing go just like that. Very extraordinary.
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Thanks so much for your comment, and for taking the time to read my work; it’s much appreciated. I think that most people would realize that carrying these painful feelings around, serves nothing. In growing up, I also came to realize that this was an accident, and no doubt this man carried his own pain. I would hope he found peace, too.
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This is amazing.
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Thank you so much, and thank you for taking the time to read and comment.
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So beautiful! Wonderful piece
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Thank you very much. I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment.
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amazing
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Thanks!
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I only joined WordPress yesterday and this is one of the first i’ve read. I found it very powerful. and extremely brave of you to write it, I wish you the best of luck in your search
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Thanks so much, and welcome to WordPress! There are so many wonderful bloggers and so much great writing on WP, that I’m sure you’ll find lots of great things to read. I’m honored that you found my piece and were moved by it. I appreciate you taking the time to read and share these kind words. Thanks!
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PS) just read your first post and enjoyed it. You should install a “like” icon, so readers like me can let you know we enjoyed your work. 🙂
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Thanks, I will try and figure out how to do that!
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Do you know how I add it? I have no idea!!
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It depends on the WP theme you have, but there are generally widgets in your WP tool bar, that you can add. There are also fantastic WP tutorials. I used a lot of them to get my blog set up.
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Extremely touching story…:)
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Thank you very much; I appreciate your kind words.
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Would you mind checking my blogs and give some suggestions..?? I have just started writing blogs so your suggestions will be really helpful for me….
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I read a few, girl, and left a comment on one. I hate to make suggestions for anyone, as I feel that blogging is so personal. However, these things have worked for me: #1, write well. People enjoy good writing. 2) I am honest and write about my own experiences. I don’t try and pass on a message to someone else (ie: hope that one friend/person sees this and gets it). 3) Shorter posts generally do better, but I am a long writer! :-p Engage your reader: “what do you like about Christmas?” “What makes you feel good about yourself?” 4) I have always answered EVERY comment. I like to engage with readers. The time they take to read my work and comment, means a lot to me, so I always respond. I think readers remember those bloggers who made a connection, and will stop by again. 5) And most of all, be patient. When I started, I didn’t have a single reader/comment/like, etc for quite a while!
Good luck with blogging, and thank you so much for visiting TFTM!
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Thank u 🙂
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I have faith that God will get this message where it needs to be, maybe not to the man, but maybe to other people carrying the burden of hate. I admire your mercy and strength. Your father must be very proud of you. Your children are lucky to have such an incredible mother.
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Thank you so much, Meagan. I appreciate your very thoughtful words of support and the time you took to read my work.
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This is enlightening, to be honest. I’m thankful 🙂 and I pray he sees this…
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Thank you very much. That would be wonderful, but I’m not counting on it. I appreciate that others have enjoyed it.
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Dawn, Your story is very similar to mine and it gave me comfort – thank you. My father was killed when I was 13; my just brother 9. The two men who killed him have sat in prison since 1983. One of them passed in 2015, his whole adulthood incarcerated. I always worried that I one would be released and I would see him in the grocery store or walking down the street, their faces as familiar to me as my fathers was when he dies. He was 36. I remember passing the age my father was when he died and regretting he never got to see 37 as I had. I too forgave his attackers. I didn’t do it for them I did it for me. I feel at peace with his passing after so many years.
Thank you again, Robin
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Robin, thank you so much for taking the time to read my work, and share your thoughts; it’s much appreciated. Your loss sounds truly horrific! I can’t imagine having someone I love murdered (?). My father’s death was an accident, and that was terrible enough. I’m so glad you were able to find piece and move on. It’s a challenging thing to do after such a huge loss, whatever the details. Thank you so much for sharing.
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One of the most beautiful and powerful story I’ve ever Read.
As long as it took you to forgive, you did it in the most elegant way.bless you.
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Shelly, I’m so sorry for the delay in responding. I somehow missed a few comments in the past week, and just saw them in my inbox! I was traveling, and things get a bit fuzzy; I apologize. I appreciate you sharing my work and your kind words mean a lot. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story, and share your thoughts; it’s much appreciated!
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Oh please dont apologize, it gets crazy out here. No I thank youuu,For such a powerful piece but Surely Opening my eyes on the. importance of forgiveness within ourselves . I wish you the best my dear.
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Thank you so much for sharing my work; it’s much appreciated.
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That is so beautiful I almost cried. I hope I can give you a hug and say to you that you are a very strong woman. You are, indeed.
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Thank you so much Winterluka. I really appreciate your kind words. And a hug is always a good thing.
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Dear Dawn,
We would love to feature this powerful, touching piece of writing on Kindness Blog with all appropriate links back to you. Would this be OK? No problems if not 🙂
Thank you.
Warm regards, Mike.
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Mike, of course; yes, I’d be honored. Thanks for asking.
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Thank you, Dawn. I’ll be back in touch shortly.
Best, Mike.
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There is so much healing in forgiveness. It’s funny how we convince ourselves that we have more power if we hold onto pain and anger. It’s only when we let it go that we realize how much peace we had been missing out on. So happy to know that you’ve made it to the best part- letting go and moving on. May your father’s memory always bring you joy and encouragement!
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Thanks so much Grace. I completely agree; it just took me a very long time to figure it out. Now, to work on applying this to other aspects of my life. 😉 Thank you for visiting Tales From the Motherland, and for your kind feedback; it is much appreciated.
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hey! beautiful post… really well written and you can tell you’re a kind and forgiving soul. i can’t imagine the pain you went through and then the strength to let go of it years later, and also to put yourself in someone else’s shoes, especially someone in such a position… god bless!
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Thank you so much. We all suffer our own losses and pain. I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment; thank you!
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This is inspiring, so heartwrenching and so freeing in the same breath. It takes an incredible strength to get to the place of pure forgiveness. I pray you’re able to find this man one day, or maybe, that he find your letter, at least. When someone dies from your own hands, it can do irrevocable damage, but forgiveness can bring irrevocable healing.
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read my work, and share your thoughts. It would be amazing to have this man come across my piece, but that seems increasingly unlikely. But I agree, it would be healing for both of us! I’m grateful to have moved through my own feelings.
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Forgiving others lets your mind and soul free from deep sorrow and lead you to the real you.
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So true! Thank you so much for taking the time to read my work and share your thoughts; it’s much appreciated.
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As I just told the people to whom I shared this, it is the most moving and meaningful piece I have ever read. Wrongs will be done, irreplaceable people will be taken from us, but healing can happen.
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Thank you so much for your kind words. This is a much older piece, but it means a lot to me, and I’m touched that you found it and took the time to share your thoughts. Thanks for stopping by Tales From the Motherland; it’s much appreciated.
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